There’s More to Come!
My season in the wilderness started a little over a year ago. While at that time I knew it was going to be a hard period in my life, I was also pretty excited to go deeper in intimacy, revelation, and all that good stuff, with my one and only Jesus Christ! I knew that it was there he would speak sweet words of love, and win my heart again and again. But it got tough fast- I went through days of bitterness, extreme sadness, confusion, surrender, and back to being bitter all over again. By the time summer came along, God really birthed a cry in my heart for rain in the wilderness. I wanted him to come and rescue me from this place. I needed him to come and make himself known.
It was then that God spoke to me about the rain. He showed me that it was in this place that I would learn to hunger for it, to be totally desperate for it, to not be able to survive without it. He would speak to me through the word, through songs, in conversations, and soon I knew I had to pray for this rain to come..physical rain! Its arrival would symbolize God’s direction, restoration, and the mark of a new season of spring! There were days I really did believe he would come, haha, and then others where I felt completely stupid for calling down rain in the 100+ degree weather. And every time it didn’t rain when I thought it would, I would forget the whole thing until he brought it up again. And he did.
During fall quarter, my drawing professor started talking about the weather, complaining about the heat, and expressing her desire for rain. She then assigned a project for the class- to create a drawing that would call forth the rain by that coming Monday! I knew this was God’s reminder to me! It never did rain that week, but God showed me in so many ways, that he would sustain me until it did come.
Rewinding back to the summer, during a worship/prayer night, I kept seeing ‘F’09′ while waiting on God. I wasn’t for sure, but it felt like God was saying my breakthrough would come during fall quarter of 2009. yes! So when it poured the very last week of my fall quarter, I knew that it was God’s sign to me. I would stand up on the rooftop with my boots and umbrella as the rain crashed down…I had to! This was for meeee!
At the start of Winter break I had a dream, and in the dream my dad told me that more rain was on its way. Even in the dream I knew that God wasn’t finished speaking. He’s coming back with the rain (not sure when!), and he has so much more to say. At onething this year they kept saying how it’s a season of rain (uh huh!). But when the first rains come, we are to pray even harder and call down more rain, because there is more! Come, Jesus! I can’t wait!!
Samuel
The voice of the Lord is over the waters;
The God of glory thunders,
The Lord thunders over the mighty waters.
The Mundane, Everyday
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday,Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday…
Every. single. day. counts.
It matters, and you don’t forget.
@ JURY DUTY.
A million thoughts are running through my mind as I sit here and wait…and hope that they don’t call my name.
1) What if I suddenly burst out singing in front of everyone? haha, they would look at me all weird.
2) Wow, Jesus really loves everyone here. He has such a big heart, but it must hurt so bad and feel so incomplete without them loving him back. No wonder he was known as a man of many sorrows.
3) My eyes are so shiap-shiap (that’s in taiwanese. I don’t know an equivalent word for it in English), and I’m really thirsty from not getting enough sleep.
4) What should I do during my lunch break from 12-1:30pm? Should I walk to the Disney Concert Hall to take pictures, find a fun restaurant, or go shopping?!
5) I should have bought that one dress from Forever 21. And I hope they have that shirt I like at another Macy’s…can’t even find it online!
6) I wonder where all these people are from? Where would they be on this nice Thursday morning/afternoon if they didn’t have to be here?
7) funky dream last night. I wonder what it means?
8 ) Wish I had my paints with me. So many ideas!
9) How come they won’t let me go on facebook here? that’s kinda unfortunate.
ok, maybe not a million. just 9.
Hey Soul, I Speak Life to You!
You have heard the desperate cry of your beloved. In the midst of darkness her voice springs forth, calling down the very source of life, crying out for the one who first marked her heart with love. Nothing less of all You are can satisfy now- there is only one thing, and only You will do.
So I speak life to you, soul. I speak LIFE! In the mighty name of Jesus Christ I break off every chain, any kind of bondage, you are free! Awaken love, awaken love, awaken love! Spring forth and cry out, for the one who saves, hears. He has heard and will respond with the coming rains. Be courageous for you are going to live! You will live, you will live, you will live!
All My Fountains Are in You
Here I am again, pleading with you to have a part of this world. Forgive me- I’m trying my best to let go and forget, to cling on and remember. All my fountains are in you and you have everything I need. You are my shepherd, I shall not want. Jesus, here is my yes for today.
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It has always been about you. For what is the purpose of this life, but just to fall deeper and deeper in love with you? Jesus, I want to be wholly yours. I want you to have my heart, my words, my every thought. I want to give you more and waste this life on you, but my heart breaks. Look at me- I have been so unfaithful, so unstable, desiring you some days and then withholding myself from you the next. I’m disgusted with myself and so disappointed. Full of compromise, I let myself go, offering my affections to the world.
But you- you’re not surprised. You knew what you were getting yourself into when you chose me and yet you choose me again and again each day. My love is real before your eyes and I move your heart. I am your favorite one, the one that you love, the only one that you see.
Don’t give up on me. I’m broken and needy, and I know my love is weak, but I’m still fighting. I’m pressing in because I believe in us. You and me, we’re going to make it. It’s been such a journey with you, Jesus, but look how far we’ve come. We’ve been through many highs and lows, and now our love, it is stronger than ever.
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